When a child dies, you do not only grieve the physical loss of that individual, but also the secondary losses that accompany. Loss of the plans you had for your future together. Loss of sharing together in events and holiday traditions. Loss...
Wrigley and I sat down one night, a few weeks back, and ordered her Halloween costume. She is going to be Moana this year! She has vowed to me that she will be a princess every year; we will see if that holds true as the years continue to pass, but she is going on four years strong.
As the preparation for Halloween continues, I can't help but envision what Ivy would have been this year. Would she have loved princesses, just like her big sister? Would she have been able to tell us what she wanted to be or would we have just picked for her based on her current interests? Or better yet, would we have dressed her as Moana too, just like her sister?
This year we will take pictures of Wrigley all dressed up - but Ivy will not be in them. The emptiness I feel on these occasions still knocks me to my knees. What I wouldn't give to hear her little voice say, "Trick or Treat".
I'm planning to buy extra Reese's Peanut Butter Cups this year, because I just know that Ivy would have shared all of hers with me.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Matthew 5:4
Fly high, dragonfly!
Peace and love,