I have this picture of Ivy on my desk at work and I often catch myself staring at it in wonder. She is such a beautiful little girl with the craziest hair. For as many hours as I have spent looking at her picture, I wonder how long her hair is now. I have to say this is the most common wonder I have about her. This is the one thing has set her apart from day one. When I show her picture to family & friends, their first reaction is always, “Her hair!”
I wonder how quickly Wrigley would have adjusted to being a big sister and having her baby sister around all the time. I wonder if Ivy’s cry in the middle of the night would have waken Wrigley up. I wonder if her personality would be just like Wrigley or if we would have had to learn to navigate parenting in a different fashion.
I wonder what her cry would have sounded like and if she would have had green eyes like me. I wonder if she would have been a mama’s girl or if we would have had another daddy’s girl on our hands. I wonder what her favorite foods would have been.
Wrigley wonders what color the playgrounds are in Heaven. She has decided pink and purple, which are Ivy’s favorite colors [per Wrigley]. Wrigley wonders if you can go swimming in Heaven. I never know what to say when she asks about Heaven, so I always try to let her answer her own wonders and make it her own vision.
Recently we heard a song on the radio that said, “Jesus is everywhere”. Wrigley was quiet for a moment and then said, “Mom, if Jesus is everywhere, and Ivy is with Jesus, does that mean Ivy is everywhere?” Such a sweet, sweet, innocent child with so many wonders about her baby sister.
Many wonders have me smiling from ear to ear. Just trying to envision the little girl that is waiting for me in Heaven. But every so often I will have wonders that knock me off my feet...
I wonder if I would have noticed Ivy’s decreased movement sooner, if I could have saved her. I wonder if that round of golf I played just 48 hours before she was born had anything to do with her heart stopping. I wonder what my life would be like if she were here on this earth today. I wonder why God chose her.
Today, I challenge you to wonder about something that makes you smile ear to ear.
Everyone was amazed and gave praise to God. They were filled with awe and said, “We have seen remarkable things today.” Luke 5:26
Fly high, dragonfly!
Peace and love,